Spoken Silence

The wind blew past my window this morning

And it was your name it said 

I timelessly think of you 

When are you not running through my head?

I know i could love you 

Its something i naturally do 

But its something there between us 

Its just me and you 

The silence spoke to me today 

It was telling me about you 

Telling me of your eloquence 

Your style poise 

Things i already knew

And all the things you could make me do 

It told me of your voice 

the spoken beauty of sound 

Yet i heard 

But only when i have spoken of you 

But never really TO You 

The ice has been broken 

The tables seem to be on me 

I cry when i think of it 

But i cant ever let you see

The silence has spoken 

The judgement is made

You are my prized token 

But i know i could never let it be made 

Together we could be 

Hopefully forever 

But only in my selfish mind u rest 

Nothing publicly displayed

I hate to think of this 

I hate feeling this way 

My own desire for you 

Cant even be said 

Silence Unspoken 

Spoken in words i cant comprehend 

Words in a language 

Not even known to man

As our hearts connect 

forming a stronghold on our spirits 

We look deep into each others souls 

Gazing to find ourselves in each other

Silence ran away this evening 

He told me to confide in you 

But he left a note for me to give to you

With my feeling 

And my heart 

It said to "let Silence speak for you" 

and left into the night

Silence has spoken 

Speaking the unheard poetry of cupid 

One thing it could never do 

Is tell you how i feel 

How much i Feel only for you

Im not ready for Silence to decipher our language

But I dont want Silence to get into the way of us

Silence blew past my window this morning 

And it was your name it said 

You in my life is forecasted

None was negated 

Ive never even felt your hand 

But you touched me so 

I asked Silence one promise

That one day i could get close to you 

And feel you in my soul

X and Y

So today was an ok day. 

I just feel very tired and stressed. 

I was listening to this song and it really shadowed what i felt

"Trying hard to speak and fighting with my weakness...when something is broken one should try and fix it so part of the plan. I really want you as my companion, u should be my best friend but i dont know if we can? 

have you ever felt like u could def be with someone but that one lil thing is in the way. 

Well another with that. im feeling great within myself at the moment. i feel content and connected. I know i owe my all to THHHEEEEE ONNNEE AND OONNLLYY GOD. He has blessed me with so much and i know he takes care of all. 

Um im also getting over my whole thing with my mom. Yes i feel like she doesnt love me and yea i really honestly feel like she doesnt care but what can i do rite now about it. Im not going to hinder myself about it and end up in a grave for something that i can easily give to the lord. 

I also feel lie i need to step my game up with my aspirations and dreams and following them. 

1. Fashion is a big deal to me and i know and highly feel i can do that one day main stream. i am going to start another sketch book soon and this time will make my designs bigger and more detailed. 

2.Health Technology/Surgery i really love helping others and seeing others do better. I just fulfills me

3.Dance i love to dance. dance is one of the only ways i can express myself and not care how people view it. 

On another note. im enjoying everyone in my life rite now. taking everything one day at a time.

2's mi loves 

Escapades

So ive lately just been trying to break away this shell ive been living in for 17 years but its not off yet. im not ready i dont think. but im loving all those in my life even if they dont love me ( mom ). Its sometimes hard to do but i know itll get me farther by not dwelling on it. I have many ppl who love me for me and not wat i can do for them . 

THANX ALL WHO CAME AND SUPPORTED ME IN THE SHOW DE TALENTED!! ( lol ) 

even though i feel i didnt do as well as i could have i think everyone has convinced me i did exceptionally well. 

Oh um imma address u as tree. but im falling for you like a leaf ( that was corny  lol ) 

YA IF YOU HAVENT CAUGHT ON I JUST NEEDED TO VENT 

and hey peeps all this dancing is making me lose weight ( i prolly gained it back by tonite at fishbones --- key lime pie was on PIZZZOINT ---- ) 

im just tryna do me. if u coming along for the ride theres room for u too. 

My new philosophy ( well more like one of my beliefs is that ) 

i always have one hand open or free for the ones i care for-- never to busy for a loved one and thats true. 

and um GOOD LOOK ON FINALS NEXT WEEK. TiME FUCK THESE HOES WITH A LAVA COVERS CONDEM COVERED IN A FLEA FILLED LAYER. ( DO NOT ASK ) 

Smilez :)

Ok today i woke up really happy, but throughout the day it was stuff being thrown at me to just make me mad but i just kept smiling. I just was thinking and wondering why did i continue to smile? was because im tired of being sad or is becuase not smiling just is ungrateful to god? Well honestly is both. Im so grateful for what i have and for all ppl ive have come across. So i just want to smile when i think about that. but i also want to be greater and become and acquire even more in life. i really just want to grow from the low burning flame to the blazing fire ( i want that to be me ). I am also so sick and tired telling myself i cant when all i have to do is DO. There is no one holding me back but myself in the end and thats really the truth. This year alone ive just become so much ( more than you can imagine ) whether it has been a man, a mentor, or even just comfortable with myself. I know like im great and can do stuff but rite now im still not at the level i would like to be at so this year is my year. Imma do me with all SMILEZ. 

2's 

Love: Over Compensation

So yea many of times ive felt like bitch you dont love me 

but you sure n the hell would tell anyone you are so proud of me blah blah 

but when they leave you dont even say a word to me ( YEA THAT LOVE )

Dont hate it when ppl feel like giving you a gift or trying to put u on a pedistle is the equivalent of LOVING YOU. 

Thats not what showing love for a person is

SHowing you love them is being there for them and actually telling them and showing them how much you love them with affection. 

So what do you think love is? Can love be unexplainable? 

Fallen Angel

You complete me
You breathe Me
Your Everything to me

I think You think
I speak You speak
And i didnt even have to tell you

We connect
Without the communion of marriage
I would've never thought that i would feel this

Your sent from heaven
Broken wings and all
Your a fallen angel

Snockin Knockin

Hmm today is a doozie.

Ive been encountered by harlots, hoodrats, annoyances and many more ( yet im trying to stay calm :) )

One piece of Kandy is being very nonchalant and careless. and its getting on my nerves.

Hmph.

MY SISTER IS COMING HOME TODAY FROM COLLEGE HELL YEA!!!!

and yea im bored and i want to actually go to the movies tonite anyone want to attend?

Lost

Today i woke up and i felt semi happy but things throught the day just lessened my happiness. 

I just feel like sometimes things dont go my way and they never will. But hey who cares.

In lighter news, i need to go shopping and get some summer clothing. Gotta keep it fresh. 

And what is up with these ppl and their normalcy. Some ppl are morally opposed to being different. STEP OUTSIDE THE BOX U LIVE IN PLEASE. 

I have un questions today: 

How do you feel about marriages at the age of 18? 

DANCE DANCE

So today i danced alot,  i guess many people are starting to have a problem with it. Is just because im a boi who can dance modernly or is it because they cant? Iono but i just feel like i need to ask a question: Is it not ok for me to dance and do what i love? Is it some rule im not abiding by? 

On another note i had a great day but im kinda tired and have alot of stress. but you know what IM SMILING!!! ( YOU SHOULD DO THE SAME )

Love, Dress, Dance

2's 

Hola MUCHACHOS

Hey peeps, 

Today was a great day ( i guess ). BUT SOME TEACHERS HAVE GONE CRAZY. 

My english teacher ( along with many others ) have decided to wait until 14 days until finals to start teaching. Is it a secret plan of theirs to Eff up their students live? ( I THINK SO ). She assigned 2 books ( to be read at the same time ) and a stupid essay that calls for me to research my neighborhood. This is wat we do in Pre Ap English! Hmph!! ITS A CONSPIRACY ( lol ).