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So today was an ok day. 

I just feel very tired and stressed. 

I was listening to this song and it really shadowed what i felt

"Trying hard to speak and fighting with my weakness...when something is broken one should try and fix it so part of the plan. I really want you as my companion, u should be my best friend but i dont know if we can? 

have you ever felt like u could def be with someone but that one lil thing is in the way. 

Well another with that. im feeling great within myself at the moment. i feel content and connected. I know i owe my all to THHHEEEEE ONNNEE AND OONNLLYY GOD. He has blessed me with so much and i know he takes care of all. 

Um im also getting over my whole thing with my mom. Yes i feel like she doesnt love me and yea i really honestly feel like she doesnt care but what can i do rite now about it. Im not going to hinder myself about it and end up in a grave for something that i can easily give to the lord. 

I also feel lie i need to step my game up with my aspirations and dreams and following them. 

1. Fashion is a big deal to me and i know and highly feel i can do that one day main stream. i am going to start another sketch book soon and this time will make my designs bigger and more detailed. 

2.Health Technology/Surgery i really love helping others and seeing others do better. I just fulfills me

3.Dance i love to dance. dance is one of the only ways i can express myself and not care how people view it. 

On another note. im enjoying everyone in my life rite now. taking everything one day at a time.

2's mi loves